2009年5月31日星期日

The Garden

Date:29.05.2009
Time:8.30pm-10.30pm
Location:One Utama[Garden]


[it was our place,reserved^^]

Me and pig decide that celebrate Green birthday at a different place...
that place we never go before...

so pigpig said THE GARDEN~yuhoo...
she call us wear formal wear...
before that think of that..wah..is it so high class??
want wear as Formal=.=


[the menu of GARDEN]

we book the table as 8.30pm
but we 9pm just reach there=p
hehe..hou choii when we reach there green they havent arrived yet..xD
cz i though we will be late..
cz i 7pm just end of work...


when we are waiting for Green them...
free what..so jz take a picha^^
kakaxx...because the boy Hao want to know about
that how to focus and make the BG blurr..
so I just show him^^



after finish showing the technic...then...
take a picha with them larh^^
leng zaii Hao and leng luii Pig~~[they just FRIEND!!]


when green arrived pigpig go bring them to GARDEN...
So we just wait for them..
on that time..i keep capture,
suddenly saw that Hao face like that..
haha..so just capture it down=p


yuhoo~~finally they coming..^^
kaka...A charming smiles on their faces..xD


Let's order some food sin....[Green..the Protagonist]



Waiting for our dinner yarhxx.....



yuhoo~~table of us order 5 plate of spaghetti@@
banyak kan??hahaha...
we all like Italy!!!xD


yeah!!sing a birthday song to Green green^^
Make a Wish....


Makan makan cheese cake luh^^
I like it move it move it!!
kakakka...xD


[Baby zaii--Xiao诗^^]

10.30pm smt Green they all go clubbing luh~~
leave us..take picha at there luh^^


[pigpig & xiao shii]
both of them leng leng larh^^
my camcam "lou hou shuii" d =p

Angels^^nice nice~~

2009年5月27日星期三

526 一人游

Date:26.05.2009
Time:11am-10pm
Location:wangsa maju + Time square






bosan kah rumah aku,playing with my guitar=.=
always stuck on the "LOVE STORY" intro...ishhh...
offday again and again..
recently did not had any plan of my offday..
10am smt i receive pit ling call..
said go have breakfast together with honey yi jin also..
so i just ready for that^^and go out have my breakfast with them
at wangsa maju “爱面子”..
i think that day were their first day in school? not sure=p
both of them discuss their teacher and the class situation..
I am listener of them^^just listen...hahaha...cz I did nt had a college life~~
seem like so interest of that^^





after 4pm i start my journey by myself!!一人游~~
now i would like to change to chinese channel..kakaka...xD



一个人搭上了地铁,独自看着窗外的风景
[好像很有feel酱=P]
在要转去monorail的时候,就看见这个风车,我喜欢很久了。
可是觉得买了很浪费钱..所以就借了这个机会拍了下来^^
还好店员没有来赶我走..(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……









去到那里5pm去戏院买了一张七点的
《Night at the museum 2》
时间还早嘛^^就去书局逛逛呗...
去到自然的走去杂志区,寻找我摄影的宝贝黄金书!!!
翻翻找找,还真的给我找到有教我们怎么拍的...
还真的有冲动想买回家!!可是薄薄一本就要十多令吉了...T.T
就只好拍下来,让我望梅止渴一下...





看完杂志后6点...还有时间嘛~
在去乱逛一下..经过SUPER BOWL
想说一个人玩一下保龄球...
可是想想我不是很会玩...玩wii就会=.=
过后就看见我最爱的POOL~~
huhu^^整个开心掉...
这是我第2次自己一个人玩POOL了^^
其实一个人玩也很有趣,因为整桌的球都让自己进完=p
玩久了这次进球的速度比之前快了~
看来还要多加训练...+u+u



在等戏院开场的时候啊~排队买了杯水在看到gsc的招牌时候,
很想拿相机出来拍!!结果发觉手上少了样东西!!
NO!!!!Green的礼物我把它留在保龄场了...
整个人紧张掉!!害怕给人家拿走了...整个飞毛腿似的跑回去5楼拿=.=
还好没有人拿走...结果又跑回去戏院刚好入场,
也看见一个女生跟我一样一个人看戏^^
没想到我还有同道中人~
呵呵...


一个人看完戏过后啊~就去厕所咯..
自然反应=.=
在我从厕所出来后,自然的去照照镜子,洗洗手..
就感觉有人在我后面,可是我就当她是要排队进厕所的吧..
可是感觉越来越不对劲儿..因为她开始碰我的相机!!
我就转过头去看!!是她...惊喜^^
她说啊站在我后面那么久都没有发觉,只是顾着弄头发@@
过后我一直恳求她跟我一起回家...
结果啊~她还是坚持说爸爸载啦~
即使我耍赖,扮小孩也无动于衷=.=
可是我还是固执的留下想要和她一起回去..
到最后知道原因了,就不敢再留下了。
怕她难堪...在这里要向她说声对不起!!



过后就自己一个人回去咯~~走在一个无人的街道...
车辆也隐形了...在眼里只是划过一条光线...

一个人喜欢停下拍照就拍照,
一个人喜欢停下看东西就看东西,
一个人喜欢做什么就做什么^^

没有束缚,没有时间限制,没有人....
不过我很享受这一切,这宁静的夜晚..
这安宁的角落,就像我的名字一样
然安....^^

2009年5月24日星期日

渴望遇见另一个自己...

其实大家写部落是不是想与别人分享 你的生活? 你的感受?
每当打开自己的部落是否是想看有没有人留言了?有没有人浏览过自己的部落呢?
当你看见有人留言的时候,是否有喜悦感呢?
而看见没有人给予回应的时候,是否感觉有点点失落呢?

或许你们没有^^因为我会有这种感受...
我承认,我爱面子!我小气!!我自私!!!我吝啬!!!!我没礼貌!!!!!
我无法控制我的情绪!!!!!!

今天放工后下大雨,原本想淋着雨骑motor回去。
结果取消了这个念头,我走去隔壁的“Feeling”打桌球。
[因为看《桌球天王》被影响@.@]
我一个人上到去有个服务生看着我,我就比比手势说要打桌球。
可是他就看我后面没人,然后显示出惊讶然后回复平常的表情带我到球桌旁。
[一个人也可以玩好不好=.=]
打了两场手臂有点酸痛=(【选错cue了T.T】

当我去取我的motor的时候,看见它被淋得湿透了,
我自然的拿块布出来为它抹干。
可是当我去抹我的后镜时看见其中一侧不见了!!愤怒!!!
看见地上的碎片,不知道是哪儿个粉肠给我弄爆了!!
好~我骑motor去motor店,看是否能换一个新的,结果那里的人说一定要换一套。
我问老爸,老爸说“他明天帮我换。”
好了,既然老爸说帮我弄了,我就骑motor车回去。

过后老爸告诉我说,明天你自己拿去修理,我给你钱,你要自己学习。

我就说:“你又说帮我弄?我这样去一定给人太高价钱。你认识人你帮我去嘛。”
我老爸就说:“你什么都要我帮你弄,我死了怎么办?你永远不用自己拿去修理了咯?你什么都不会自己骑motor回到家了爆胎了也不知道!”

我听到这句之后我很愤怒!!!当时我不是不知道,我是知道的,
只是想到太夜了然后也差不多到家了,所以向家人求救说我的电单车爆胎!
我也没有说没有尝试去学习,今天我有自己去motor店问!只是老爸说帮我拿去弄所以我回家!

我承认我自己脾气来了,说气话:"我不骑motor了,我自己去搭lrt。"
老爸说:“然后呢?永远搭lrt吗?你就不能自己去弄吗?只是很简单的就在家里附近。难怪人家不爱和你说话,你每次说话都那么没礼貌,对朋友就低声下气。”

我再次的无言。多少次了?无数次了。每次都拿朋友来说。
我知道家人对我好不是理所当然。为什么我对朋友那么好?因为我想被人关心。
面对家人总是不能说出自己的问题。

这又让我想起我老爸对我说:“你应该换工作。这份工作不好。”
当时他说这句话的时候,那一段时间的我已经为我的工作而懊恼
我说:“不要再说这个了好吗?我已经为这个问题烦很久了。”
老爸说:“你不说,我怎么知道?”

叫我怎么开口对你们说我这些琐碎的问题?因为我不需要问我已经知道你们的答案。
在小学的时候会给人家说我成熟,可是现在呢?
我一点都不成熟!!觉得自己很不理智。

朋友总是可以让我敞开心胸的去诉说。
可是真正能聆听我的又有几个?每一个都拍着胸口说我会挺你。
可是我真正需要安慰与关心的时候,你们往往不知道是去了哪里。
一直重复的说着我的问题,一直向你们诉说同样的事情,别说你们不厌烦
这叫我怎么再敢向你们说我同样的问题,还没有解决的问题?

为什么我对朋友那么好?因为我知道在我难过,伤心,失落的时候想要得到的是什么。
所以我不想看到朋友有跟我同样的感受,因为这一点也不好受

我对自己的要求很高,可是却什么都做不好。
就连我应该怎么样发泄我的情绪我也不知道。
为什么我选择飞motor?
是因为我想有人关心我,因为这是拿我的换取你们的关心
只有那么严重,才会有人注意

在写这篇文章我已经禁不住我的眼泪
我控制不了我的情绪
我的头很痛!!!我很难过....

我很想遇见另一个自己,那个会懂得我想法的自己...T.T

2009年5月21日星期四

Wednesday..520


today 20th of may,520
and the day when Pig first time hold Rou hand^^

The begin...

Waiting..everythings of the love begin it is WAIT~





What a sweet smile of Pigpig^^
[next time must force Rou smile more sweet sin=p]
Long time did not upload my blog already..
although not many reader of my blog..
but im the reader of my blog..xD
because i always saw my blog also don't have new post...
hehe...so now i fast fast upload narhxx...kekexx..

Wednesday!!
kakaxx..the day I off^^
before that plan go out with Green but she busy of her work..
so i just ask for Pigpig go out with me~kekexx..
1030am I take taxi go to kepong jusco wait for Pigpig..
actually she said 1130am meet larh..but i just scare don't have taxi want go kepong,
so i go out early...the fee of taxi from my home go kepong RM11!!
I think if I drive myself , the petro no need that price also....=.=
First time I seat the car of Pigpig , Huhu!!the car BIGBIG the Pigpig smallsmall..^^[Cute larh~]
im shy larh...=p
The first station we go was "INTI",because Pigpig want give somethings to Rou..
and i want meet the friend that i know her for almost 1 year and never meet up=p
kakaxx...She is Yingying a girl who Tall & Thin!!!seriously....=.=
stand beside her I seem like Fat & Short..it is the first time i feel myself SHORT!!!!
so when i meet her the first word i said was:"stay away from me!!"
hahahaha...then she really stand at there,din't come infront of me...cute larh..xD
after that we chit chat for awhile,take some picture then we said good bye with yingying larh..
before we go the Pigpig sing the song to her"ngor muk yau 6 che gou..."
[lee hakken punya song=p] laugh die us...kekexx...

j.co!!^^nicenice..the mini donuts..J.POPs
The second station we go it is pyramid^^
when i reach there fast fast go find niie niie..because she said 3pm will end of work already!!
yuhoo~when i saw her...mamamia!!Mature alot~~~~[but i more like her before punya style=p]
Miss her alot larh...we almost 3 years din't meet already..now i jz recognise that i did not hug her larh!!ishh...saii jor the chance..hahaha...but if i want hug she also wont allow larh...
her heart only had her husband larh..xD

Hey!niie niie don't forget your promise yarhxx..remember find me yam cha^^


actually today i seem like just go out and meet people...=.=
because not take alot of picture...
and just have a few of that success..kesian aku!!
before i go back home i sms Luvlynn ask her can we have dinner together..
but she tell me that she at hospital visit her mum...
I hope that her mum will recover soon and wont let her worry about that...
PRAY PRAY..

2009年5月14日星期四

原点

以前听哥哥说过一个故事...

从前有一户人家,他们家的妈咪呢~
总是爱吩咐她的孩子去买东西...
一开始呢,没有代步工具嘛~
所以孩子总是心甘情愿的走路去帮妈咪买东西...

开始到了由脚踏车的时候了...
妈妈叫孩子去买东西,
孩子却说:“没有脚踏车骑很麻烦啊!”
妈咪所:“你以前还不是走路去的?”

够后由脚踏车演变成了摩多车...
妈妈依然吩咐孩子去买东西,
孩子说:“都没有摩多车~”
这次妈咪说:“这次有脚踏车了,骑脚踏车去买吧。”
孩子却说:“骑脚踏车很累...”

直道现在有汽车了...
妈妈还是习惯吩咐孩子去买东西,
[这不用我说你们应该知道孩子会说什么了吧?是的没错^^]
孩子说:“没有汽车啊..”
妈咪说:“这不就有摩多车吗?”
孩子说:“坐汽车比较舒服。”

这是我对这个故事的模糊记忆,大致上是酱...

回想自己,也是如此..
以前都走路去搭巴士,走路去买东西...
过后脚踏车,到处去...
近几年,以摩多车代步...
近几天,终于有机会驾车...
还有一段时间因为想要驾车而跟家人发牢骚!!
其实当时当自己发脾气过后,就立刻意识到是自己的奢求与任性!!
这只是附属品,以前也不是一样从走路脚踏车摩多车..

为什么要因为这些附属品而发家人的脾气?

今天妈咪把那辆我昨天驾到爆胎的摩多车拿去修,还特地的拿去公司给我...
看见妈咪骑着那辆摩多车来,然后吩咐我多加一个锁,泊在比较阴凉的地方..
就只是那样很简单的说几句,我就pek cek了!!还给了脸色我妈咪看..
当我看见妈咪手上拿着大小包东西对这我说:“你驾摩多啦,我在这里等爸爸来载。”
我自己心里想我错了,我大错特措!!
妈咪特地的拿来给我让我方便回家,
只是好心的劝告我不要把摩多车放在太阳底下那样会很容易爆胎。
只是想确保摩多车不会被偷得念头下叫我多加一个锁。
全都是为我着想。
当我拿着头盔和钥匙回公司的时候,
我面对这电脑,我很难过很难过,为什么我会对妈咪那么没礼貌!!
我不忍心让妈咪在楼下一个人等不知道几点会来载妈咪的爸爸...
我立刻拿着头盔和钥匙快步的走下去找妈咪,
看见她一个人在吃午餐,我把头盔和钥匙给她,叫她骑回去不用等爸爸来载那么久。
她原本想坚持等爸爸来载,她说已经跟爸爸说了,
直到我亲自打电话叫爸爸不用来载妈妈她才接收了钥匙。

我永远都会记得我把妈咪给弄哭了,在我还就读于中学的时候。
大哥哥当时有想过要打我!!可是妈咪却说不要打~
我对这件事情一直都耿耿于怀~
我的母亲是多么容易的原谅子女,
而我却只懂得发脾气!!

我记得爸爸说过的话:
你有脾气难道我们没有吗?
为什么你能对你的朋友那么好?而对自己的父母大小声?

在我遇到某些问题的时候..老爸帮我挡!!
事后我发脾气,他却对我说:
我只是要保护你啊!!

其实他们所说的话我都有听进去!!
只是自己会控制不到自己的情绪,还是会发脾气..
每一次我立刻就会后悔我所做的事~
可是我总是爱面子,不敢道歉,继续坚持我的任性!!
其实我真的知道,我真的知道是我的错,是我的任性!!
哥哥常说他们年纪也不小了,你能说他们还能陪你多久呢?
每次一说到这个话题,我的眼泪总是会在眼眶打转~
为什么我看《钱不够用2》会哭得那么凄惨?
因为我觉得我就像里面的角色一样那么不孝!!
里面的歌曲正正就像述说着我~

我想是时候回到原点,
回到我刚出世在爸妈的怀抱中,
乖乖的听话,不会顶嘴。
回到原点,
不奢求于驾车,而选择走路。
把我对某人的爱,
转换于对我爸妈的爱...

王家所爱护的女儿,
王依宁 上


2009年5月13日星期三

The first Model invite...

Date :6.5.2009
Time :11am-2pm
Location : Cheras [Ashley house]
Model :Ashley&Raisin[her lovely dog^^]

It was the first time a girl find me to capture for her..
she is Ashley who i know at the 3kingdom event...
both of us also did not had a experience on that><
so on that day i woke up early in the morning...
take LRT & bus go to leisure mall wait for her bring me go her house...
when i reach her house..just had one word to describe “Wao!!what a BIG house...”
and she had 3 of dog..when i go inside her house the Golden Retriever & Raisin keep stick on me=.= [but memang cute larh^^]
after that i wait her prepare then we start capture at her garden & playground...




























After i finish capture,i really recognise that i did not improve of my technic><
i really sad of that..
i know that i only can capture natural pose natural movement...
if one of the model pose infront of me i can't capture it in well T.T
recently really feel upset of that....

2009年5月5日星期二

I MISS YOU

上班的时候,msn跳出了一个感觉又熟悉又陌生的名字出现在我荧幕~
...[久违的她]
知道在我工作附近的网吧...

放工后,知道在这千载难逢的机会下能遇见....

很久很久没有这个机会了....

一开完会,我就飞下去找,还好并没有离去...

[在路途中我好害怕走了,因为在msn一直说要回了><]

当我以踏进那间网吧的门口,我努力的寻找[因为那里有两间一样名字的网吧...]

很庆幸的在那一间网吧^^一眼看下去,我看见一位很瘦的女生+头发很短...

我不敢确定,我走前去,偷看了的荧幕一下,看到了刚才我跟聊天的视频^^

我确定是了~

第一眼看见,她样子很憔悴,很累很累的样子...

真的很想疼><

过后聊了一下,知道她感情出了点问题...

很想给更多的安慰,很想肩膀借靠多一会儿,很想陪聊更多更多....

每次我们见面的时间都不会超过一个小时...

我很想时间停留在那里..因为我不知道什么时候才能再见到...

最后我陪走回去,那熟悉的路,那同样的人,只是关系不一样了...
我知道只想我们的关系维持在朋友,很可能只是很普通的朋友,

因为我根本没有机会进一步的再了解,因为在我们之间已经有一层隔膜...

一层陌生的隔膜...只有在放下对我的掩饰时,这一层隔膜才会消失一会儿...

回到家,打开哥哥的电脑,听见了一首歌~虽然不怎么动听,但是歌词正是我的感受...


我怕我再打下去,我会控制不了自己的情绪~所以...请你们看歌词来体会我的感受....



[NOT JUST ONLY COPY PASTE,THAT'S ALL I TYPE]

I MISS YOU-----AKIKO

A couple seasons passed me by

Since you made me feel so real

That feeling i remember

It was as good as can be


I haven't seen you for a while

I wonder if you're well

What's going on in your mind?

I really would like to see


I try to think but it won't do
It's taking time to get near

Some things are hard to explain

I wonder can I tell you?


We haven'd been taking much

It doesen't mean i don't care

Should I just call you to say

I'm falling and i miss you


Wish I was with you in my dreams

and I'm praying to be your side

and suddenly you'll slip away


Easy as flowing down the steam

Do you know that?

Will you understand me?

Why is it you make me wait so long?


Sometimes do you think of me
as much as I think of you

I'd like to know when you dream
Am I there?
Do you miss me?


I know you can't share life with me

and I don't know what to do

but if you walk right thru my door,

you will see that I miss you


In my heart

I want you

to know that

I miss you